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zo ba sai mama ce kadai take ziyartaru tana duba lafiya ta. Ta gaya mana itama duk sun daina kulata kuma suna ta surutun wai dan karayar arziki ta samu Alhaji Babba shi yasa muka juya masa baya, bayan mu abinda yayi mana bayan rasuwar Baffa ya dauko mu ya rike mu ya aurar dani ga dansa mafi soyuwa a gurinsa amma duk bamu gani ba saboda mun zama butulu. Inna tace "Allah ai shi yasan abinda zuciyar bayinsa".

Sai da mukayi wata uku a haka, har na gama wanka duk da cewa na wata biyu akayi min. Ranar nan muna zaune da maman iman muna cin wake da shinkafa sai najiyo Inna tana waya, daga jin sunan data ambata nasan kiran daga Kollere ne, ai kuwa tana gama wa naga jikinta yayi sanyi tace min "Hardo ne. Yace yana neman mu duk a Kollere ranar asabar" tun daga nan naji duk wutar jikina ta dauke. Washegari kuwa dai zazzaɓi. Ranar asabar da assuba Mama tazo tare da driver suka dauke mu ni da Inna muka bar Asma'u a gurin maman Iman. A hanya nayi kwanciya ta a mota trying so hard not to think about what the outcome of the meeting might be.

Muna zuwa muka tarar already su Alhaji Babba, kawu Isa, Aunty Fatima da kuma Saghir suna can. Tun kafin mu gama gaishe da Hardo ya fara fada. "Yanzu wato tun kafin in bar duniya har kanku ya rarrabu irin haka? Har zumuncin ku ya tarwatse har haka? Har son zuciya ta son yayanku ya rufe muku ido kun manta da yanuwantakar da take tsakanin ku? Kun manta da tarbiyyar da ni da inno muka baku?" Ni dai ina rakube dama daga can bakin kofar shiga dakinsa, na hango Saghir shima a can daya end din su kuma iyayen mu suna tsakiya. Sai daya gama fadansa sannan yace a tsara masa abinda ya faru, kawu Isa ne yayi bayanin haihuwata da rasuwar twins da kuma abinda ya sami Alhaji Babba na gobara, duk da cewa duk Hardo yasan wannan, sai kuma yayi bayanin shi Saghir abinda yace da kuma ni abinda nace, ya kara da cewa "mu abinda ya bamu haushi shine yadda Amina ta rufe idonta ta goyi bayan Diyam, bayan kowa yasan tsakanin mata da miji sai Allah babu ta yadda za'a gane mai gaskiya a cikin su. Kawai ta hana yarinyar komawa gidan mijinta ba tare da anyi bincike ba. Sannan kuma ta hada kayan ta ta bar gidan Alhaji Babba a lokacin da yake tsaka da bukatar kulawar yan uwansa, ta koma gidan marigayi ta bude ta kafa zaman kanta. Wannan ne yasa muma muka zare ta daga jikin mu".

Hardo ya hada su gaba-daya ya wanke su, yace da mai gaskiya da marar gaskiya duk a gurinsa masu laifi ne, sannan yace "ni yanzu zan yanke hukunci, sai kuma inga wanda a cikin ku zai nuna min cewa ya girma yanzu yayi ya'ya kuma ni bani da iko akan ya'yansa" ya fada yana kallon Inna data sunkuyar da kanta kasa. Ya nuna ni yace "Haleema" nace "na'am" yace "zaki koma gidan mijinki" na runtse ido hawayena yana zubo wa. Ya dora "uwani zata biku ku cigaba da zama tare kamar wancan karon. Zan gaya mata cewa ta saka ido sosai a kanka kai Saghir ko sau daya ta tabbatar da maganar Halima ni da kaina zan karbi takardar ta a hannunka. Sannan abu na gaba shine zaka saka ta a makaranta, zata karasa karatunta na secondary inta gama kuma in kun daidaita a tsakanin ku sai ta cigaba. Ka fahimta?" Saghir yayi gyaran murya yace "na fahimta Hardo, kuma ina godiya" Hardo ya juyo kaina yace "ke fa Halima? Kin fahimta?" Na gyada kaina, yace "ki bude baki kiyi magana mana?" Sai na bare baki na saka kuka. Nan take ya koreni daga dakin yace in tafi cikin gida.

Anan muka kwana, naga Inna ta dan shiga yan'uwanta suna magana sama sama. Ni kuwa babu wanda na kula ina kudundune ina zazzaɓi. Da daddare wai sai ga kira inje inji Saghir yana waje, na tashi naga duk suna kallona dan haka na saka hijab na fita, na dan tsaya a soro na bata lokaci sai na dawo gida nayi kwanciya ta.

Da safe kowa ya shirya zamu tafi, mukayi sallama da mutan gida ina fitowa waje na hango Saghir a tsaye a jikin motar dasuka zo da ita ya harde kafafu yana kada key, na dauke kaina zan wuce yace "babu gaisuwa?" Na juya baya naga kawu Isa yana kallon mu sai na gaishe shi ciki ciki, ya amsa yana murmushi yace "in kin koma gida ki shirya jibi zan zo mu tafi" na faki ido na jefa masa harara na wuce. A raina nace "munafiki".

Mun koma gida da kwana biyu kuwa sai gashi da safe wai in fito mu tafi. Na koma nayi kwanciya ta Inna tace "tashi ki dauki mayafinki ku tafi, sauran kayanki zan hado miki in aiko miki dasu" na fara kuka, sai ta zauna kusa dani ta jawo ni jikinta tace "kiyi hakuri Diyam, nasan wannan duk laifina ne dan tun farko ni na bada kofa har akayi miki auren nan, yanzu kuma babu yadda zanyi tunda igiyar auren ba a hannuna take ba. Kiyi hakuri kinji?" Sai naga kwalla a idonta, nayi saurin goge hawayena ina gyada kai, ta dauko sabuwar waya a cikin kwalinta da sim card ta miko min tace "tun ranar nan na siyo miki wata. Ki tafi da ita, duk halin da kike ciki ki kirani ko ki kira Hafsa ki gaya mana. Uwanin ma munyi waya da ita tace min itama yau zata je. Ki yi ta addu'a kina gaya wa Ubangiji kukan ki, shi kadai ne zai zaba miki abu mafi alkhairi a rayuwar ki".

A mota na tarar dashi a zaune yana jin kida, na kai hannu zan bude baya sai ya danna lock ya rufe, dole na na shiga gaba yaja motar ba tare daya ce min komai ba. Ina ta kuka na kasa kasa har mukayi nisa muka kusa unguwar sannan yace "wallahi ko kiyi shiru da kukan nan ko kuma in sauke ki a gurin nan" nayi shirun tunda nasan ba karamin aikinsa bane ya saukeni a wajen.

A bakin gate ya ajiye ni, ina fitowa ya ja motarsa yayi gaba. Na shiga gidan ni kadai kamar mayya. Maigadi ya taso ya muka gaisa na bude palo na ganshi kamar wanda akayi yakin badar a ciki, kaca kaca, ga used plates nan ko'ina duk sun bushe. Bedrooms ne kadai masu dan kyau suma bawai gyarawa akayi ba amma dai ba'a bata su ba. Na lura cewa abubuwa da yawa were missing a gidan, daga dukkan alamu kayan gidan su suka koma source of income na Saghir. Na kunna tv naga lafiyar ta kalau,na fara tattara gidan kenan naji a tv an sako wakar Westlife ta coast to coast "my Love"

An empty street, An empty house, A hole inside my heart, I'm all alone The rooms are getting smaller. I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are, The days we had, The songs we sang together Oh yeah
And all my love I'm holding on forever, Reaching for the love that seems so far, So I say a little prayer, And hope my dreams will take me there, Where the skies are blue To see you once again, my love, Over seas from coast to coast, To find the place I love the most Where the fields are green To see you once again, my love
To hold you in my arms, To promise you my love, To tell you from my heart You're all I'm thinking of. And reaching for the love that seems so far........

Sai naji kamar dani suke a wakar with Sadauki as my faraway love. Na zauna akan kujera na kama sana'ar tawa ta kuka. Ina cikin yi uwani tayi sallama ta shigo, sai na tashi da gudu naje na rungume ta.

Tare muka gyara gidan gaba-daya, sannan uwani ta fitar da kudi daga aljihunta ta bawa maigadi yayo mana cefane mukayi girki. Muna gamawa sai ga Saghir yazo ya zauna a palo suna gaisawa da uwani sannan ya ce min "kawo min abinci" Sai na juya ina mamakin karfin hali irin na Saghir, kai da baka bada kudin cefane ba ina kai ina neman abinci? Ina kallonsa ya dauki wayata ya duba, sai naga ya daddanna ya ajiye. Da dare na fito daga wanka ina shirin kwanciya waya ta tayi kara. Na dauka ina duba number din dan number inna da ta Mama kawai nsyi saving dazu a gurin uwani. Na dauka naji muryar Saghir "ki kawo min ruwa dakina" na ajiye wayar nayi tsaki. Har zan kwanta sai kuma na saka hijab dina na dauko ruwan naje na kai masa. Yana kwance ya kashe fitila ya rufa da bargo, na ajiye ruwan ba tare dana ce masa komai ba. Zan fita yace "Diyam" na juyo ina kallonsa ya nuna kusa dani a kan gado yace "come here" na watsa masa harara na juya yace "kin san dai hakkina ne ko?" Na juyo nace "kai wanne daga cikin hakkokin ka ka sauke?" Yace "ki bani chance ki gani. Kuma nasan so far I have been trying my best" na fara tunanin wanne ne best din nasa. Sai ji nayi yace "zanyi Allah ya isa in baki zo ba" na juya da sauri ina kallonsa nace cikin mamaki "are you for real?" Ya daga kafada yace "bani da wani choice ai, ina bukatar ki kin ki bani, bazan iya miki dole ba so my only choice is to do Allah ya isa, ta rago" na juyo kamar wadda aka saka wa remote ina tunanin yadda aljanna ta take kasan kafarsa amma a lokacin babu abinda nake so irin in shake kyakykyawan wuyansa har sai ya daina numfashi. Na zauna a bakin gado na juya masa baya ina jin hawayena yana zuba a cinyoyi na, ina jinsa ya matso ya zare rigata sannan ya jawo ni zuwa jikinsa, ina jinsa yayi duk abinda yake ganin zai iya yayin da ni kuma kukana yake kara tsananta har ya gama abinsa. Ya sake ni yana mayar da numfashi. Na mike zaune na jawo rigata na saka ba tare dana kalleshi ba na mike sai ji nayi yace "shikenan kuma? Ko dan curdle din nan ma, irin falling asleep together din nan na masu aure babu, na juyo ina kallonsa da kumburarrun idanuwana, yayi murmushi nace "shima in banzo ba Allah ya isan zaka yi?" Yace "well, yes" na juyo na dawo na kwanta. Ya matso da pillon sa kusa dani ya jawo ni jikinsa sannan ya jawo bargo ya rufe mu.
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Maman Maama

Episode Thirty Seven : Abatcha Motors

Da assuba na tashi kamar kullum, na cire hannayensa daga kaina na mike ina kallonsa yana ta sharar baccinsa, ban tashe shi ba tunda ni dai dama ban taba jinsa ya fita masallaci ba, na tafi dakina na shiga toilet na kunna wa kaina shower wai ko zata sanyaya min zuciya, inna wanke jiki na sai in sake wanke wa in sake wanke gani nake kamar duk Saghir dinne a mammanne a jikina, ji nake ina ma ace zan iya cire fatar jikina in sake wata wadda Saghir bai taba ba? Nayo wanka na na fito na saka doguwar riga ta hijab nayi sallah ina addu'a Allah ya kawo min karshen auren nan, sai kuma na chanja nace idan auren shine mafi alkhairi a gare ni Allah ya cire min Sadauki daga zuciyata ya shiryar da Saghir ya saka min sonsa a raina. Ko da banso shi ba at least in rage tsanarsa hakan zai dan rage min zafin da nake ji a zuciyata.

Ina nan kan sallayata har gari yayi haske rana ta fito, sai naji an bude kofar dakin da nake, na juya ina kallon Saghir daya dau wanka yasa gayunsa kamar kullum sai kamshi yake, ya tako har tsakiyar dakin da takalmin sa a kafarsa yace min "ki zo ki bani breakfast zan fita" na dauke kaina gefe saboda wani takaici da ganinsa ya saka min nace "ka kawo abin breakfast din ne?" Yace "ki duba dakina akwai kayan tea sai ki hada min tea, akwai kuma kwai a kitchen sai ki soya min" daga haka ya fita, na tashi nayi abinda yace na kawo masa palon sama yana zaune yana kallo, na zauna ina kallonsa har ya gama ya karkade jikinsa zai tashi nace "mu kuma fa? Me zamu ci" ya tsaya yana kallona yace "babu abinci a store?" Nace "ka ajiye ne?" Yace "bana son maganar banza in babu kawai kice min babu" nace "ai ka fini sanin babun" yace "ku sha tean mana to, kafin lokacin abincin rana ai zan dawo" yayi hanyar waje nace "in baka dawo ba nima zanyi Allah ya isa" sai kawai ya juyo ya kalleni yayi murmushi ya fita.

Bai dawo ba din kuwa. Haka na samu wata guntuwar shinkafa a store muka dafa fara dama uwani tayo guzurin yaji muka ci da mai da yaji. Bai dawo ba sai dare, daren ma sai bayan mun kwanta kuma nasan maybe yayi hakan ne dan kar inyi masa mitar bai ciyar dani ba. Da safe ina kasa muna gyaran gida sai gashi ya sauko, ya leka wajeya kira mai gadi sai naga sun hau sama tare ya bashi akwati ya sauko dashi kuma daga ganin akwatin nasan da kaya a ciki, akwatin cikin kayan lefe nane. Nabi mai gadin da kallo har ya fita sannan na hau saman muka hadu dashi yana kokarin saukowa nace "wancan kamar kayana naga an fita dasu, ko dai ido na ne?" Bai kalle ni ba yace "aro na dauka, zan siya miki wasu idan wadansu kudina da nake jira sun zo" nace "ko aron ne ai ana tambayar mutum kafin a dauki aron kayansa, kuma ni ban bayar da aron ba a dawo min da abi na" yace "ta yaya zamu zauna da kaya cikin akwati alhalin store din abincin mu babu komai? Ai ba kyauta nace ki bani ba aro ne kuma zan biya ki kin dai san ni ba talaka ba ne ba ko?" Kafin in bashi amsa ya fice. Na shiga dakina na tarar duk ya hargitsa min kaya, kusan duk kayan lefe na masu tsadar ya dauke. Bakin ciki ya kama ni kawai sai na zauna ina kuka, sai na tambayi kaina, wai yaushe ne zanyi farin ciki ni kam, yaushe ne zanyi murmushi, irin geniun smile din nan mai zuwa har zuci.

Ya siyo mana kayan abinci sosai, ya kuma bani 10k ya ce kudin cefane "saura kuma a karar dasu da wuri ace min babu" sauran kudin kuma bansan me yayi dasu ba.

Kwana biyu bayan nan, tunda rana naga yana tayi min fara'a sai nasha jinin jikina, da dare ina kwance a daki sai gashi ya bude kofa ya shigo nayi sauri na rufe idona dama fitila a kashe take, yace "Diyam, Diyam" nayi banza na rabu dashi. Sai ya hawo kan gado na sai nayi juyi na fara munsharin karya, irin wannan munsharin mai kamar kakin majina, sai yayi tsaki ya tashi ya fita. Na gyara kwanciya ta a raina nace "sai dai kaje ka rungumi pillow bani ba" and that got me thinking, this is his second attempt a kaina a cikin sati daya da dawowa ta, amma wancan karon wata na bakwai a gidan sa tun randa yayi raping dina bai kuma kallata da wannan maganar ba, menene ya chanza yanzu? Sai nayi realising cewa da yana da kudi yanzu bashi dasu, meaning da yana iya siya a waje yanzu ba zai iya siya ba, wato wannan shine dalilinsa na yarda da dawowa ta irin ga banza ta fadi dinnan ko? Ni kuma indai haka ne bazan yarda ba sai nasan yadda nayi na karbar wa kaina yanci. Sai kuma nayi mamakin kaina yadda nayi realizing Saghir yana neman mata amma ko a jikina wai an tsikari kakkausa, ko kadan banji raina ya baci ba alhalin ko a yanzu da nake matar wani in nayi imagining Sadauki da budurwa ba karamin baci raina yake yi ba ballantana inyi imagining dinsa yayi aure. I can only imagine yadda Sadauki yake ji a ransa a yanzu da make matar wani, har na haihu dawani. Ko ya yake ji? Ko ya yake coping?

Washegari ya tashi yana ta fushi, ni ko kallo bai ishe ni ba. Zai fita yace "zanyi baki anjima, abokaina ne manyan mutane ne sun takura wai sai sunzo sun ganki. Please don't embarrass me, kiyi musu abinci kuma kiyi shiga mai kyau kisa kayan da zasu kara miki girma". Bai jima da tafiya ba dai sai gashi ya dawo da kaji wai duk ayi musu. Mukayi abinci ni da uwani muka jera a dining, muka gyara gida tsaf yana ta kamshi na tafi sama nayi wanka na saka wata doguwar riga ta atamfa, dama ba kwalliya nake yi ba, na saka hijab nayi sallah ina zaune akan sallaya ya shigo yace "gasu sunzo, kuma please ki cire wannan dogon abin" ya juya ya koma, na tsaya ina tunanin menene dogon abin, doguwar rigar ko kuma hijab din?

Na tashi na gyara hijab dina na bishi, suna zaune a palon kasa kusan su biyar duk irin sa, yayan masu kudi masu ji da kansu. Na zauna a hannun kujera na gaishe su suka amsa, suna tsokana ta wai amaryar da ake boyewa, ina kallon Saghir yana ta harara ta nayi kamar ban ganshi ba sai cewa yayi "kin zo kin zauna kin saka mutane a gaba, ba zaki tashi ki kawo musu ruwa ba?" Na fahimci lallai so yake ya dizga ni a gaban abokan sa ya nuna musu ba sona yake yi ba, ni kuwa bai san yadda nake jin haushinsa yafi yadda yake jin nawa ba. Na mike sai cewa yayi "au ina miki magana ba zaki tsaya ki gama ji ba sai ki wani tashi ko?" Na dawo da baya na tsaya a gabansa nace "wanne daga ciki kake so Saghir? In tsaya kayi min fadan ne sai in kawo musu ruwan ko kuma in tafi in kawo musu ruwan sai kayi min fadan which one will you like first". Kusan gaba-daya suka kwashe da dariya. Ya kasa cewa komai ya tsaya yana kallona, sai na daga kafada nace "abinci yana kan dining, you can serve them in ka gama fadan" na juya nayi hayewata sama. Ni kaina nasan na gama da Saghir, amma kuma shi ya jawo wa kansa, me yasa zaiyi tunanin bara ya wulakanta ni a gaban abokan sa? Ko yana ganin hakan zai kara masa class ne a cikin su.

Ina nan zaune naji fitarsu a motoci sai kuma naji yana hawowa, nasan zuwa zaiyi mu yita amma sai naji bana jin tsoronsa, ya shigo har dakina ya karaso gabana ya tsaya, kawai sai jin saukar mari nayi a fuskata, saboda karfin marin har saida na daina gani for some seconds sannan ya sauke min a daya side din. Sai da naji taste din jini a bakina. Ya nuna ni da dan yatsa "ke har kin isa ki ce zaki gaya min magana a gaban abokaina, me kika dauki kanki ne? Wallahi ki bini a hankali Diyam in ba haka ba watarana sai na kai gawarki gida" Ya juya ya fita.

Na rike fuskata na zauna a bakin gado, bazan iya tuna sanda aka taba marina ba, to ni waye ma mai dukana in banda inna itama kuma mostly a kafa take dukana. Hawaye ya fara bin kuncina ina lissafa irin abinda zai faru da ace da ne wani yayi min wannan marin a gaban Sadauki. Nice kuka har magrib ina tayi, daga yin Sallah kuma sai zazzaɓi mai zafi ya rufe ni. Uwani ta hawo taji ni shiru sai ta tarar bana jin dadi sai ta zauna a waje na har saida Saghir ya dawo sannan ta sauka.

Tun daga ranar ban kuma lafiya ba, yau zazzaɓi gobe amai jibi ciwon ciki. Saghir kam fushi yake yi dani sosai ni kuwa ta kaina nakeyi, bai ma kula cewa bani da lafiya ba ballantana yayi tunanin kaini asibiti. Bayan nayi kusan sati ina jinya rannan uwani tace min "Diyam anya kuwa ba zaki yiwa Saghir magana ya kaiki asibiti a gwada ki ba? Ni fa ina ganin kamar juna biyu ne dake" sai naji wani amai ya taso min, naje nayi na gama na dawo nace "ciki fa uwani? Wanne irin ciki kuma?" Tace "ni dai na fada miki, kuma kije a gwada ki gani" sai na hau sama da sauri ina jin kamar labarin mutuwa ta uwani ta fada min, na fada kan gado na kama kuka, na shiga uku ni Diyam, sai na fara addu'a "Allah ka dube ni Allah, Allah kasa kar maganar uwani ta zama gaskiya" amma kuma nasan rabo na da period tun ina gidan mu, ga kuma abinda ya faru ranar dana dawo.

Ina nan kwance Saghir ya hawo yana kwalla min kira, na tashi na same shi a tsaye a kofar dakinsa yace "ki shiga ki gyara min dakina" na wuce shi na shiga na fara harhada uban lodin kayansa duk daya barbaza a dakin, ga zazzaɓi gashi jikina babu kwari saboda amai. Shi kuma ya tsaya a kofar dakin ya harde hannayensa yana kallona. Na daga wata riga kenan naji kamshin turarensa ya doke ni sai amai, da kyar na karasa toilet na fara karara wa sai ya biyo ni ya tsaya a bakin toilet din yana kallona har na gama sannan yace "baki da lafiya?" Bance masa komai ba yace "me yake damunki?" Nace "zazzaɓi" yace "da amai?" Na girgiza kaina da sauri nace "warin turarenka ne ya saka ni aman" yace "amma ai kullum shi naje sakawa baki taba aman ba sai yanzu. Are you pregnant?" Nayi shiru bance masa komai ba sai yayi tsaki "ke bansan wacce irin mace ba ce ke, daga an taba ki kadan sai ciki" naji wani abu ya tsaya min a kirji na wuce shi na dawo daki ina cewa "tunda dai bani na hau kan kaina nayi wa kaina cikin ba ai da sauki. If you hate me that much ka sallameni mana in tafi" ya biyo ni yana cewa "and who says I hate you?" Na tsaya ina masa kallon kar ka raina min hankali, sai yace "idan da bana sonki Diyam da tuni kina gidan ku wallahi ko dan wannan rashin kunyar taki. Kuma yanzu ko dan wannan samun cikin da ake yi ai ya kamata ki fahimci cewa we are meant to be together. Ki kwantar da hankalin ki muyi rayuwar aure kinki, kin ki cire that Sadauki of a person daga zuriyar ki kuma... " Ban karasa jin abinda zai fada ba na fito daga dakin na koma nawa.

Washegari shi ya tashe ni da safe wai in shirya muje asibiti, muna zuwa ya samu doctorn dana lura kamar sun san juna yace "PT zaka mata Please" sai doctorn yayi dariya ya kira wata nurse ya hadamu muka je tayi min. And it came back positive. A ranar nayi kuka kamar idona zai fita.

Tunda muka koma gida ya tare a dakina yana jinya ta, shine bani magani shine yi min sannu da su hada min tea, ni duk na dauka jinyar Allah da annabi ce sai daya sauke bukatunsa a kaina sannan na fahimci inda jinyar ta dosa.

Kayan lefe dai mun cinye su, babu biya babu ranar biya. Sai kuma yazo ya dauki set din kayan kallo na palon sama ya siyar, daga nan sai set din gadon extra dakin da bama amfani dashi a sama, sai deep freezer. Duk abinda aka siyar daga an dan siyo kayan abinci an dan bani kudin cefane bana kuma sanin inda sauran kudin sukayi. A haka har cikina ya tasa yayi wata biyar.

Ranar nan na shiga kitchen na rasa me zan dafa mana na hawo sama na same shi akwance a gado yana daddanna waya. Nace "babu