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ya saka aka tura mu asibiti daya da Hafsat amma ita tana bangaren gynecology ni ina neurology, Amina ma an samar mata admission ita da faruk sun fara karatu, yaya Walid ya gama, ya Habeeb kuma yana project dinsa.

Na koyi abubuwa da dama a asibitin nan, anan na kara sanin irin baiwar da Allah yayi wa bil adama, naga yadda ake bare kan mutun ayi masa aiki a kwakwalwa sannan a mayar a rufe, na koyi yadda ake yin hemisphecrotomy inda ake chire rabin kwakwalwar mutun a bar masa rabi kuma ya tashi lafiya lau. Na koyi abubuwa da yawa wadanda nake sa ran zan dawo Nigeria in yi.

A asibiti na hadu da Mahdi. Nasha ganinsa amma bamu taba magana ba saboda ba daga school daya muka zo ba dan haka ban sanshi ba. Rannan mun fito daga wata theatre ina zaune ina hutawa kawai sai naji anyi min sallama, na daga kaina sai na ganshi, na amsa masa cikin mamakin accent din hausa da naji a bakin sa. Fari ne tas, irin farin da har jaja yake yi kamar in ka taba jini zai fito, kirar jikinsa dai dai misali, komai nasa kamar shi yayi wa kansa, sam bai yi kama da hausawa ba. Ban gama mamaki ba sai ji nayi yace "sunana Mahdi Datti Sufyan, daga university of Michigan, ni dan garin kano ne, unguwar gwauron dutse. Naga kamar kema 'yar Nigeria ce ko?" Sai a lokacin hankali na ya dawo kaina, sannan na fahimci cewa na bude baki ina kallon sa, nayi sauri na rufe bakina nace "wait Datti Sufyan? The name sounds familiar" yayi dariyar data bayyana kyawawan jerarrun hakoransa yace "yah... My father is kind of famous in kano" ya zauna a kusa dani yace "baki gaya min sunan kiba amma" na sake tattaro hankali na nace "sunana Maimoon Muhammad Dikko, I am Nigerian also, I.." Ya katseni "ambassador MD?" Nace "kasanshi ne?" Yace "yeah..... Da akwai sanda baba yazo ya kaini embassy gurinsa, yace in ringa zuwa ina gaishe shi, amma kinsan halin students ban taba zuwa ba. So you are his daughter?" Na gyada kai ina murmushi, yace "nice to meet you Maimoon" nace "nice to meet you too Mahdi"

#ga masu complain cewa Moon bata da kamun kai, ina tuna mana cewa akwai mutane in reality da suke exactly kamarta wadanda sam basu iya bata rai ba, suna da faran faran da saurin sabo da mutane, yawancin su kuma suna da mugun kirki. Hakan ba yana nufin basu da kamun kai ba, kawai nature dinsu ce haka, kuma yawanci mutane suna son su. Fara'a ita take jawo mutane, su kuma mutane rahama ne#

Thank and I love you all.


Episode Thirty Three: Zayed

Tun daga ranar mahdi ya zama best friend dina, in har ina cikin asibiti to muna tare dashi, rannan muna zaune dashi nace "dan Allah Mahdi in tambayeka" ya cire glasses dinsa yana kallona yace "ina jinki" nace "dan Allah da gaske kai bahaushe ne? I mean biologically?" Straight yace min "no, babana adopting dina yayi" da sauri nace "yes!! I knew it" dariya yayi sosai har yana buga kafa sannan yace "wasa fa nake miki, serious ni bahaushe ne, why do you doubt it?" Sai naji kunya kuma nace "kawai dai ba kayi kama da hausawa ba" yayi shiru sannan yace "my mother was shuwa arab, ni kadai ta haifa Allah yayi mata rasuwa, so.... I am different duk a family, wannan shi yasa na taho kasar waje karatu, I want to feel like I belong, a gida kullum kamar alien nake ji na a cikin siblings dina" na sunkuyar da kaina inajin ba dadi, ace ka zama kamar bare a cikin 'yan'uwanka babu dadi, nace "am sorry about your mom, am sorry I asked you" yayi murmushi yace "chill, ba komai, it is better that you know".

Har gida na kai Mahdi ya gaishe da daddy, take daddy ya gane shi kuma yayi masa fada akan baya zuwa yana gaishe shi. Karatun mu muke yi sosai gar muka gama first year din mu a clinical, sanda muka je hutu gida kamar za'a chinye mu danyu, babu shiri daddy ya sako mu a jirgi muka dawo England. Munir da ya ganni kamar zai yi hauka, lallai ai shi baffa yayi masa alkawarin aure na. Inna da daada ma yanzu sun fara mita, a cewarsu ya kamata by now ace muna da tsayayyun samarin da muna gama makaranta sai aure. Four years kenan rabona da Ibrahim, tabbas har yanzu ina jinsa a raina amma sosai na rage tunaninsa. Sometimes na kan yi lissafin ko me yake yi yanzu? Sai kuma in yi sauri in kawar da tunanin saboda bana son in dawo wa da kaina aiki baya. Sai da muka shiga final year din clinical sannan na fara fahimtar cewa Mahdi is gradually falling in love with me. Yawan kira na a waya, kullum da weekend yana hanyar embassy gurina, ga yawan compliment, duk kayan da na saka sai yace nayi kyau, ko kuma yayi ta kallona a sace in mun hada ido ya yi sauri a dauke kai. He is really a nice guy and I really don't want to hurt him, amma sam ni bana jin sonsa a raina, I like him, but I don't love him.

Rannan muna daki da Hafsat da Amina, sai Amina ta dau waya ta tana ganin pictures kawai sai taga hotona da Mahdi. Tace "wow, moon wannan gayen fa?, gaskiya ya hadu ba karya" nace "wa kenan?" Ta juyo min screen din naga Mahdi nace "ohh, he is my friend, sunan sa Mahdi" tace "wait, don't tell me bahaushe ne" nace "dan kano ma kuwa, kanon ma cikin badala" ta bude baki tana kallona da mamaki sannan ta sake kallonsa, sai kuma tayi murmushi tace "something is really cooking here, wannan din za ki ce min wani friend din ki? Mu dai a fada mana ba sai tayi tsami ba" nayi dariya nace "am serious, we are just friends" tace "then something is definitely wrong with you, anya kuwa kina da lafiya, anya kuwa female hormones estrogen and progesterone suna aiki a jikin ki kuwa?" Nayi dariya kawai na share maganar ta, amma kuwa maganar ta tsaya min a rai, ba maganar Mahdi ba, maza in general, sam bani da interest a kan su, sam bana jin wani feeling idan naga wani namiji me kyau ko kuma in muna tare da wani namiji ballantana Mahdi wanda jinsa nake kamar Hafsa. Na tuna sanda muna tare da Ibrahim yadda nake jin attraction a tsakanin mu, why is it now gone? Yanzu dana kara girma ma ya kamata ace libido na ya karu amma it's like I have none. Na zauna ina lissafo Mahdi, komai bashi is perfect, sai kawai naji a raina ina comparing dinsa da Ibrahim. Mahdi is far more handsome than Ibrahim, more educated, more richer, his family is well known, kuma a kyawun dabi'a ma ban taba kama Mahdi da hali marar kyau ba, dan tunda muke bai taba taba ni ba. Amma why is it that in na tuna shi bana jin komai amma in na tuna Ibrahim nake jin pang a zuciyata, why must love be so cruel? Da haka na yanke shawarar cewa i must do something about Mahdi tun kafin inyi hurting dinsa.

Rannan yazo gida gurina kawai sai nace masa "ni kuwa Mahdi baka taba fada min wacce irin mata kake son aure ba" kamar wanda na sosa masa inda yake yi masa kaikayi nan ya fara lissafo min duk siffofi na da halaye na yana murmushi, yace duk sune abinda yake bukata a gurin matarsa. Ji nayi kamar hawaye zai zubomin dan na tabbatar da cewa she is head over heal in love with me. Sai da ya gama tsarinsa sannan yace "ke kuma fa" na kakalo murmushi nace "OK, inason namiji baki, kakkarfa, mai ilmi, mai addini.. " ya katseni yace "baki kuma? Why?" Na sake yin wani murmushin nace "tun ina yarinya haka kawai sai nake ganin kamar dark color is for men and fair color is for women, to har girma na sai ya kasance I am more attracted to darker men then fair men" murmushin fuskarsa naga yana subucewa, nayi sauri nace da alamar mamaki "oh God am so sorry Mahdi, you are very handsome the way you are, it's just my short coming and it's not as if you are in love with me, right? Na tambayeshi zuciyata na bugawa, ya sunkuyar da kansa kasa sannan ya girgiza kai yace "you are right, i just find it weird cewa ba kya son maza farare" ya hadiye wani abu a makogwaronsa yace "bara in tafi, see you tomorrow " bayan ya tafi na jima a gurin a zaune, I hated hurting him amma it's better this way, na dafe kaina nace "ohh Ibrahim, what have you done to me? Kai kana can kayi auren ka ni kuma I can't even have a boyfriend"

Tun daga ranar muka koma 'yar wasan buya da Mahdi, duk sai naji na takura saboda ban saba da haka ba.
Cikin 'yan kwanaki naga Hafsat ta fara zama mysterious, nasan da abinda take boyewa amma na kyale ta nace in tayi tsami maji. Rannan kuwa na dawo daga asibiti kawai sai na hango ta a mota ita da wani, can nesa da gate din gidan mu, na saka driver ya sauke ni a gate, ni ma yau sai na gwada mata sa'do irin wanda take yi wa mutane. Ina karasa wa kuwa na tabbatar ita din ce da wani, harara ta watso min, na dauke ido na daga kanta na kalli wanda suke tare, ai bansan sanda na bude ido, baki, hanci kai har da kunne ina kallonsa ba. Dariya yake yimin wholeheartedly sannan yace "so, the beautiful one is here" Hafsat tace min da fulatanci "to rufe bakin haka" na mayar da bakina kuwa na rufe, nace mata nima da fulatanci "kamar balarabe nake gani?" Bata bani amsa ba ta shareni. Tabbas sanda nace duk saurayin da Hafsat tace tana so to azo a ganshi da gaske nake, amma sam banyi tsammanin irin wannan ba. Balarabe ne, kuma daga ganin shi full blood balarabe ne, ga gayu da cikar kamala irin na larabawa, zai kai around thirty something years. Fuskarsa cike da kyau da annuri irinna larabawa. Yasa hannu ya bude min kofar baya yace cikin kyakykyawan turancin sa "shigo, waje akwai zafi sosai" ba musu na zagaya na zauna. Ina zama yace "my name is Zayed, and i am going to be your brother in law insha Allah" na ce excitedly "Ameen, sunana... " ya katse ni "Maimunatu, ana ce miki Moon, shekara daya Hafsat ta baki and you are her only sister... " nan yayi ta bani labari akaina har abubuwan da nake so da wanda bana so, nace " ya akayi ka sani?" Ya kalli Hafsat yace "kullum sai anyi min hirar ki, Moon this, Moon that, kullum maganar kenan, inama zan samu asoni kamar yadda ake sanki" Hafsat ta dafe kanta tace "ohh God, am out of here" na bude motar sannan tace min, "to parrot, in kin gama surutun ki shigo gida" ko kallon sa bata yi ba ta rufe kofar ta kama hanyar gida. Tana tafiya nima na fito, amma maimakon inyi hanyar gida nima sai na zagayo na dawo seat din gaba in da ta tashi na zauna, nan muka kama hira dashi, na fahimci shima yana da surutu da tsokana. Ya gaya min cewa shi mutumin saudi arabia ne, aiki ne ya kawo shi England, shine director na pediatric department na asibitin da muke clinical, wato ogan Hafsat ne, be taba aure ba saboda be taba ganin wacce tayi masa completely ba sai akan Hafsat. Nan nima nace masa "kasan kuwa Hafsat bata taba saurayi ba, ko da kuwa saurayin wasa ne" yace "really?, please bani labarin ta? Nan na gyara zama na fara kwararo masa labarin Hafsat tun muna yara, muna nan har aka kira sallar magrib, sam bai gaji da hirar ba nima kuma ban gaji ba, a karshe nace masa "the bottom line is, she is very annoying but she is the best sister that I could ever ask for"

Tun daga ranar kullum Zayed yazo sai ya neme ni munyi hira, tun Hafsat tana tashi in nazo har ta hakura take zama. Na fahimci cewa suna matukar san junan su kuma ni a idona sunyi bala'in dacewa. Zayed yayi min a matsayin brother in law.

Muna kokarin gama clinical din mu ne rannan da weekend naga Hafsat kamar hankalinta a tashe, nayi niyyar in rabu da ita sai kuma dai na kasa, na tambayeta, har ta shareni sai kuma ta dawo kusa dani ta zauna. Tace "Zayed ne zai zo ya gaishe da daddy yau" nan da nan na washe baki na da murna nace "Allah?, to kuma menene abin bata ran ke da zakiyi murna" tace "I am scared moon, gani nake kamar za'a samu matsala, and I really love Zayed you know" sosai na gane yadda take ji saboda nima na taba kasancewa a irin exact position din ta, nan na shiga lallabata ina cewa "daddy ba zai taba kin someone like Zayed ba". Wajen yamma yazo, Hafsat kasa fita tayi dan gabaki daya jikin ta karkarwa yake yi. Sai ni na fita na shigo dashi main palo sannan naje na gayawa daddy yayi bako a palo, sai da daddyn ya fito sannan na tashi na dawo daki, akan sallaya na tarar da Hafsat tana ta faman jan charbi, har dariya taso ta bani amma na dake, kawai na tuno ranar da Ibrahim yazo gidan mu a Abuja yadda securities suka ringa maltreating dinsa, Zayed kuwa yanzu yana zuwa har wani bashi guri suke yi suna gaishe shi, a raina nace rayuwa kenan, if you have money you have everything. Muna nan zaman jiran sakamako ni har na fara bacci naji Hafsat tana kiran sunana, na tashi na hango ta akusa da window, nima naje na leka, Zayed, daddy da ya Walid muka hango suna tafiya hanyar gate, daga ganin yadda suke cikin nishadi kasan an samu nasara, Zayed bakinsa har kunne. Hafsat ta rungume ni itama tana murna, kawai sak naji kwalla a idona. Inama Ibrahim ne muma hakan ta kasance damu. Su daddy basu jima da dawowa cikin gida ba ya kirani a waya yace muzo ni da Hafsat. Hafsat duk kunya ta ishe ta. Muna zuwa kuwa kowa ya fara tsokanarta wai ta dauko balarabe dan take yin aikin Hajji da umra a free. Sai da akayi shiru sannan daddy yace " Hafsat naga sakon ki, kuma ni dai a ra'ayina ni da mommyn ki munyi na'am da zabin ki. Amma na gaya masa in kun gama wannan session din zamu je Nigeria sai ya saka time ya turo magabatan sa sune 'yalleman su gaida baffa da kawunnan ki, su zasu bada auren ki bani ba, suma kuma ina saran insha Allah ba za'a samu matsala dasu ba. Allah ya sanya alkhairi" gaba daya muka ce "Ameen" ya Walid ya kalleni yace "saura ke" nayi sauri na sunkuyar da kaina. Daddy yace "eh Maimunatu saura ke. Ya kuke ciki ne da wannan farin yaron dan Datti Sufyan?" Nayi sauri na dago kaina nace cikin in ina "ba.. ba komai daddy" yace "bangane babu komai ba, dama ba saurayin ki bane?" Na girgiza kaina, yace " to maimunatu, kinsan dai akwai maganar Munnir har yanzu, kuma ni Allah ya sani bana son hadin ku da munnir, amma babu yadda zanyi indai har baki fito da miji ba kafin nan kafin ku kammala karatunku" Mommy tayi ajiyar zuciya tace "ni na rasa gane kan Moon wallahi, kamar wadda take gudun samarin, who would have thought Hafsat zata riga Moon samun miji



Episode Thirty Four : Back to Square One

Daddy ya tashi ya shige daki. Yana shiga Hafsat ta mike ta fada cinyar mommy ita kuma ta rungume ta suna dariya, nima dariyar nake yi amma ta yaqe ce, maganar daddy ce take yi min yawo aka, tabbas nasan munir bashi da niyyar hakura, kuma nasan in har na gama school bani da wani sauran excuse, ballantana yanzu idan iyayen Zayed suka je neman auren Hafsat kowa kuma hankalinsa dawo wa kaina zaiyi. Ina cikin wannan lissafin naji maganar mommy wacce ta sake daga min hankali "ai naji yace ma indai har su baffan sun amince acikin hutun nan naku yake so ayi komai a gama, in yaso kya karasa project dinki a gidan sa, kinga nan da baifi wata biyar ko shida ba za'a gama komai" Hafsat ta boye fuskar ta a cinyar mommy wai ita kunya, su yaya Habeeb suna ta tsokanarta da amarya, ni kuwa, shock din maganar ne ya daskarar dani a inda nake zaune, mommy ta kara da cewa "ni dai kam ni aka tasa a tsaye, lokacin yayi min kadan gaskiya, saboda ni plan dina shine nan da kamar shekara biyu masu zuwa, so nayi yadda kuka taso tare ke da moon in hada ku rana daya in aurar daku shikenan" I have heard enough, na mike zuciya ta tayi min nauyi na kama hanyar fita, ina jiyo su suna ta making plans, mommy ta kira daada tana gaya mata. Ina fita part dinmu na shiga, sai kuma na rasa me zan dauka, sai kawai na dauki hijab dina na saka na kama hanyar gate. Ni kaina bansan inda zani ba, I just want to get away for a while. Baifi saura wata biyu ya rage mana muyi hutu ba, muna yin hutu zamu tafi Nigeria. Allah ne kadai yasan irin abinda zan fuskanta a can. Dan jiki na yana bani baffa zai iya cewa a hada aure na dana Hafsat, da zarar nace bani da saurayi kuwa za'a ce ai ga munnir nan yana ta zaman jira. Allah ya gani bazan iya auran munnir ba. I despise him. To ko Mahdi zan lallaba ne? But I don't love him and I will end up hurting him. Ya Ilahi. Ina fita gate na hango motar Zayed a gurin da yake tsayawa in yazo gurin Hafsat. Na juya na fara tafiya in opposite direction, ina jinsa yana horn kuma nasan dani yake amma naki juyowa. Ban ankara ba sai ganin mota nayi a gaba na, yayi winding glass din motar ya kalle ni da murmushi a fuskar sa "beautiful one ina zaki je ne haka ke kadai kuma a kafa?" Nayi niyyar inyi banza in rabu dashi tunda duk shi ya ja min daya dauko maganar auren Hafsat amma kuma sai na kasa, it is not in my nature wulakanta mutane. Na karasa kusa da motar sa nace "nan baya zan je ba nisa" daga yadda yake kallona nasan bai yarda da maganata ba, ya bude kofar motar yace "shigo in kai ki" na danyi jim sai kuma na shiga. Ina zama yace "What is wrong" kawai sai jin hawaye nayi yana zubo min, nayi sauri na rufe fuskata da hannuna na fara kuka. Ya gyara packing din motar ya zauna, bai ce min komai ba, bai kuma rarrasheni ba, sai da nayi kuka na me isa ta sannan na dube fuskata ina goge idona da hannuna, ya miko min box din tissues, sannan ya sake tambayata "what's wrong?" Nan take na fara bashi labarin tun farkon haduwar mu da Ibrahim, aikin da na saka daddy ya samo masa, graduation din mu, yadda ta kasance ranar da yazo gidan mu da tafiyarsa, dawowarmu England da labarin aurensa,na kara da cewa "har yau babu shi babu labarinsa, he might be dead for all I know. Amma na kasa chire shi daga raina, na rage tunaninsa amma na kasa mantawa dashi, I can't fall in love again" sannan sai na bashi labarin Munnir, na kuma bashi labarin Mahdi. Na kara da cewa "yanzu muna zuwa Nigeria aka fara maganar ku da Hafsat, shikenan hankalin kowa zai dawo kaina, ko dai in fito da miji, which I don't have, ko kuma a aura min Munnir, who I don't love". Nayi shiru idona a lumshe ina sauraren yadda zuciyata take bugawa. Zayed yayi gyaran murya yace "do u want the truth?" Ba tare da na kalle shi ba na gyada kaina. A hankali yace "He is not coming back" na juyo da sauri na kalleshi ya gyada min kai tare da maimaitawa "he is not coming back" na dauke kaina na daina kallonsa, yacigaba da cewa "he left because he weak and unsure of himself, yes, sanda ya tafi maybe yana da niyyar dawowa sanda yaji he is strong enough, auren sa ya kara rage chances dinsa of coming back to you saboda matarsa zata yi iya kokarinta wajan janye hankalinsa daga kanki, da zarar ta haihu kuma shikenan hankalinsa zai kara karkata kan 'ya'yansa. After almost five years kuwa his chance of coming back to you is zero percent. Dole ki saka a zuciyarki kuma ki yadda da fact that he is not coming back. Abu na farko kenan. Abu na biyu shine, dole kiyi opening heart dinki for another man. Love at first sight is very rear dan haka idan guy yace yana sonki kamata yayi ki bashi chance, get to know him sannan zaki san cewa you can love him or not. You are very young and very beautiful Moon, your life is just starting, kar ki bar wani can da maybe ya manta dake yayi ruining happiness dinki. Open your heart to both Munnir and Mahadi and whoever else comes your way. Kina jina Moon?" Na gyada kaina yayinda wasu siraran hawaye suka biyo kuncina. Ya cigaba "daga duk kan stories dinki da nake ji a gun Hafsat, na fahimci cewa you have a good heart, mutane like you, I mean people with good heart sun fi kowa facing challenges a rayuwa akan harkar aure, kasuwanci da sauran al'amuran rayuwa saboda Allah yana testing din su yaga how good they are saboda He is saving something good for them"

Idan kana ta samun matsala a rayuwa, kuma ka tabbatar baka da hakkin kowa akan ka, ka tabbatar kana bin iyayenka kuma kana da zuciya mai kyau wacce babu hassada babu ganin kyashi babu kwadayi ko zalunci a ciki, to ka tabbatar cewa jarabawa ce daga Allah kuma in har kaci jarabawarka to sakamakon ka zai zamo something very good aduniya da kuma lahira. Allah ya bamu dacewa, Ameen.

Tunda muka yi magana da Zayed sai naji tamkar an sauke min wani nauyi daga kaina, maybe dama I needed someone to talk to. Naji na samu confidence na facing ko menene yake tahowa gareni ko da kuwa auren munnir ne. Kafin mu rabu ranar sai da ya saka nayi masa alkawarin duk halin da nake ciki zan ke zuwa ina gaya masa. Ina zuwa asibiti na samu Mahdi bace masa ni fa bana jin dadin yadda muke yi yanzu, ina so mu koma kamar da, ya nuna min cewa komai ya wuce, nan muka cigaba da al'amuran mu kamar da. A gida kuwa mommy sai shirye shirye take yi, daddy kuma yayi waya Nigerian embassy da ke UAE ya basu information din Zayed ya saka suyi masa bincike akan sa da family dinsa. Hafsat da Zayed kuwa sun dage sai diga soyayya suke kamar zasu chinye juna, inna gan su sai inyi ta sha'awarsu, both gentle, kuma Hafsat duk rashin kunyar ta in suna tare sai inga tayi laushi, dan ko harara ta zata yi sai taga baya kallonta tukun.

Mun kallama clinicals din mu an sallamemu daga asibiti muka koma school, inda acan ne aka bamu project topics wanda kowa ake so ya kammala acikin shekara daya. A bangaren psychology da nake yi ne coordinator din mu ta bani wani strange topic. Abinda tace shine "kowanne mutum yana da sides guda biyu, da akwai side din da yake in the light da akwai kuma side din da yake inda dark. Shi light side din shine wanda mutum yake nunawa kowa yana gani, ma'ana, dabi'unsa da kowa ya san sa dasu.